Unfocused Confused But Still Keeping My MInd on The Target

I am all over the place it seems with what area to get into, animals, security, online, offline, music, I don't know.  I know I don't want to be on the road, I know I want to do work that's important to me and serves the greater good.  I care the most about animal, I'm also very entertained and intrigued by them, however, don't know my place within that field, if nothing else, I could make money and fund organizations that help animals.  Freedom from fear (being actually afraid for my life) is a definite goal, I need to know all about guns, pepper spray, etc., and the laws governing them.  I would love to have security camera's proximity detectors, etc., watching my house at all times.  That's all I have for now.